When Word Seems Too Overrated

Lost at word?Opt for acting 'it' instead.We all aware of 'actions speak louder than words' quote.There are time when simple words like "I'm sorry", or "Take care" seems very hard to spit it out. Some of us let their egoistic part win, rather than letting out those wishes. No exclution for me too, I'm not an emotional material girl, but I figured;having actions to replace them seems a good way to start.And I don't mean by giving out cute present or candies with those wishes written on the attached card.No.Not that.

My dad, for instance; does not really showered my mom with gifts, and I barely heard him saying the 'I Love You' gesture to my mum. Maybe behind my back they do share their ways of affection, not that I know of. But one thing growing up with them made me realize how much dad really care about mum. Every night before bed, without fail, he will bring a glass of water along with all mum's supplement vitamin or medicine.My mum kind of fragile, she do have a lot of medicine to take. I mean, how do my dad keep up with them? The medicine keep on changing from different prescription. Sure it take a lot of attention and patience to keep up.

Now,one of my favourite to ponder upon whenever I am at my kampung, about my 'tok abah'. Men don't do well with words. And how did I caught " What-a-special-menantu" my dad is to him? Is by the daily newspapers spread on the table by breakfast time. I only know that tok abah usually buys 'Berita Harian' or 'Utusan', but 'The Star' or 'Newstrait Times' will be there too if dad stay at kampung. Tok abah doesn't bother to do that way for other uncle of mine. If that doesnt make the statement yet, get this; tok abah will get kari kepala ikan or lai chi kang, everytime he manage to.Why? Yes, dad's favourite.

Don't get too upset or sensitive if your significant others havent said the word you have been expecting from them. Maybe is not them that being insensetive, maybe you are the one that missing some smaller action from them. Excuse them for having hard time to let the word out, and let be more appreciative toward the small gesture,shouldnt we?

Monotonous

Monotonous.If I been ask how to decribe my life,well, that the word I would use. Monotonous. As if the piano player of my life had fallen asleep on one of the piano keys.The same key.Same note.

Weeks passed, and it is June. June! I felt like I am running in circle. Different week with similiar routine, except the sylabus of what my teacher taught and the homework given. But everything else is monotous.

Same key. Same note. And it annoy me. I need an octave higher or lower.Either one, an octave apart but not the same one. Don't care whether it is melancholy or harmonic

Suppose I have to lift the piano player head and play myself. Or alternatively hiring somebody pro like Maksim would be a good idea. Then my life would be full of 'beat'.

How Do You Sleep?

Those time I've been struggling to just doze off, sure I would run out of fingers to count it all. Consider me insomniac, hard to sleep, owh- whatever they call those people like me. Im not quite sure why there are times where its hard to just knock off, I could say one thing: paranoid!

NO! NO! Not paranoid as in imagining theres somebody pulling my blanket while I'm asleep, nor some childish imagination of a monster hiding in my closet.Naah, hey I'm fully grown up, what do you take me for?

Paranoid by mean that, when it was time for bed, I was all tired from doing all the homeworks and stuff, so the clock all ready showing somewhere between one or two; so when I hop to bed, my mind was all busy focusing "I need to get up early, early class!!". In the end, I could not sleep because of fearing that I might could not wake up for early class the next day. BUMMER! Happen everytime, my biological clock is all screwed up!

But if sleep is define by the inert state between active period, then I was sleeping afterall albeit my mind is still fully active.

Darn!!! What an over reactive mind do Syafina have!! Care to trade??

Twice do count as accident, right?

I’m a klutz, whole-heartedly admitting now (before I don’t understand why I’m being call as such).

First occasion:

Enjoying the cold ice lemon tea, while surfing the net, and chatting with dearest Cik Diyana thru Skype, the glass decided to lie down suddenly; and there goes my half not yet drunken ice lemon tea – on the keyboard! (Mind you, I own a lappy, ergo part of it screw up, the possibility for the rest of the lappy to tumble down also is high).

Second occasion(less than a week from the first):

This time is hot tempting, caffeine full Nescafe. I was watching ‘How I Met Your Mother”, and yes you got it right; the mug casually followed the glass’s act. Hot! So I swore several times, pushing pause button, while hurrying up to get dry cloth. Note that, by I mean watching, I don’t own a TV, so lappy is all I got. Poor him, or more to poor ‘sooner-you-need-to-replace-your-lappy’ me.

Obviously I’m making excuses for my own carelessness for saying those glass and mug need to lie down. Go figure; accidents do happen, that what’s they are call for, but I guess it doesn’t need to happen twice.

And so I solemnly vowed (much to make a mental note I think); “No more drinking by the table!!” ( yet, a bottle of caramel tea is next to the lappy, screaming “Uncap me, uncap me!!”

“No, no. I uncap you when I want to drink only” reply me, the reckless, unaware, klutz and accident prone type of human. (Sigh…..)